like for real. It's been like expanding my waist and everything else along with it, LOL. I don't know why i find that funny, you can believe me when i say i am devastated. Well not just because of that, but also because i have never been so bored in my entire life. I've been going to tutoring but i have had a bit of a break, i need to take a couple of math classes, so I could take a POINT FIVE CREDIT IN STATISTICS!!!!!!!!!!!
Isn't that ridic? I mean come on, why must I take two calculus' just so i can get .05 of a damn credit. damn u of t. anyhow, then on top of that, I've been beat with cabin fever, seeing as how i haven't done anything outdoorsy except going out just once, to go watch avatar, WHICH WAS THE BEST MOVIE OF THE YEAR!!!!
I mean i liked new moon.....NOT, but new moon didn't need to be great to make money. Hell it didn't even need to be good. I'm absolutely positive there's some level of black magic involved. LOL
but avatar did, and boy did it. I like jumped up and down and the two Indian brothers next to me were so angry, one was close to slapping me, but for real, like i loves it.
Yeah, that's all i can remember for now.
I'll post again when i can.
Peace.
Ray
Sunday, December 27, 2009
yo. winter break is doiung things to my waist size.
Thursday, November 26, 2009
So much has happened over the past couple of days...
If anyone's been watching, or even comes to this blog, then you'd know that I have actually been away for quite some time. Well for one, I have been going through so much , it's like so much has been happening all at one timee.
Well for one, one of my old friends from high school lost her brother on remembrance day. Robert Flagellio born 1991, was shot on November 11th 2009, for no reason, as a result, of a walk-by shooting on Oakwood and Vaughan, coincidentally right in front of my best friend Michelle's house. He went to Oakwood, and I always saw him, even though me and his older sister Jackie and I have sort of gradually seen less and less of one another. She goes to McMaster, and things have sort of separated between us, but she was, a good friend, all through grade 10. SO sad, that Robert, such a cool, and funny kid, who had the best personality ever, and a very bright future ahead of him, would be at the bad end, of a drive-by gone wrong.
I just hope their family is doing well, and can learn to cope, with the loss of such a beautiful light.
SO yeah.
We went to his wake, and then his funeral, and banquet afterwards. I realy don't know what to do or say in situations like these, I am nothing without my wit, so I remained silent, and gave them a shoulder to lean on, even though they seemed to be alright with their family's support, I just wanted them to know that I was there if they ever needed me.
Robert Flaggellio, R.I.P.
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Oh and....
DID ANYONE FUCKIN WATCH VAMPIRE DIARIES????
1)I can't believe vicki is dead
2)Aww, poor matt you can really tell he has a real heart of gold.
3)Seriously, damon is like walking sex. Even as a kille, i really think he is a good guy......who just loves to be bad.
4) I actually did like stefan at one point, but now, it's all about damon. Stefan is waaaay to sissy man. He's like a little girl. Damon, now damon, is a real man. Why can't there be real men like him anymore. the kind who flatter you by not kiling you, and that's their human way of telling you they dig you. I guess you could say i have a type.
5) I get it, your boyfriend is a vampire, so go and brood, but honestly at least by episode 8, LEARN TO DEAL BITCH!
6) Honestly bonnie is not only the hottest, but the coolest and most interesting female character in the show.....although caroline is slowly winning me over. I actually watch the show for her, and the ending to episode 8 really left me wondering about her more than anyone else.
7) Bonnie's aunt is on a different world.
8)The music on this show is so hot, like yet by switchfoot.
9)Is anyone excited for the bonnie/matt/damon love triangle?
10) If twilight is diet coke, than vampire diaries is pure citric acid.
Errand day.
Today I was running all over, getting things done. As you probably already gathered i am not al that great at getting stuff done on time, so i had to be pay my visa bills (both of them) I had to go do my cousin's hair like i have ben promising. I had to go buy veggies from the flea market for my mom. I had to go and cancel my gym membership, because it expired in august and I only went twice. I pay.....or my mom pays....25 bucks a month, so i might as well not renew it....right.
Oh and i have a gym membership with my school, it comes with tuition, so....if anything i have that. Let's just say i've tried the working out thing, and it is so not for moi.
But yeah....then i came home, and i cleaned like a friggin slave. I also, chilled and my sister started explaining to me about her love life. apparently, and she's not making this up because i was made to watch the conversations---she is currenty in the pedicament of deciding which on of the four guys who are obsessed with her at her school she wants to date.
WOW, crazy huh?
In highschool, i sure as hell did not have those kinds of dilemmas, in fact my ove life was nil, and here my spawn is romancing the entire oakwoodite population. LOL, go figure huh?
ANywho, i haven't talked to steph, seems she doesn't think we have an issue, or doesn't really care that we do. I wish i could say i didn't care, but i do, because she is one of my best friends. But regardless, i can't lie, i do feel a tiny bit of weight off my shoulders at our blockade.
Oh and i recenty watched like a million period romances like pride and pejudice, emma, sense and sensibility, persuausion, mansfield park, tess of the d'ubervilles, the girl, and sooo sooo many more. This is ike the third straight week i have stayed up until six am (its when i get my privacy and alone hanaan time) and really i think i am addicted. tonight i am going to watch the gass virgin, and oh oh oh, i watched the wedding date and all i can say is.....
.....dermot mulroney..........
mmmmm....mmmmm....mmmmmm....mmmmmmm....goood!
Saturday, October 31, 2009
My Mother makes Mussolini look like an amateur....
She's wholly unreasonable. I mean i don't know what to do with her. I really don't have a clue. I mean I am 21. 21. 21, dammit people.
I should be able to do as I wish, and not what I am forced to right?
And the sad part is that I don't want to do much, in fact very little at all. I have asked her last night during the hockey game if I could go to the halloween haunt thing (when really my friends and I have uoft frat party), but she doesn't know that. ANd i thought a little honesty would be helpful, you know tell them the truth halfway, make them met me rom the other.
But she said yes the night before, and then changed her mind afterwards. Her excuse was that she didn't trust my friends. I'm 21 lady, you don't have to, because its none o your business, i can vote, i can drink, i can marry, i can do everything you can do and more, and what do I get nothing in return.
Yep, so i learned a valuable lesson today. Never tell her the truth. Even tho they say to trust them, they are all liars of the highest degree, and when they ask or the truth give them what they want to hear. A lie.
ALso, next time i have plans and i'm going to an event, i'll use my well prepared lie: "i have a midterm. Sorry, i will be home late."
Ray.
Thursday, October 29, 2009
eh yo...
so i don't know what happened....but apparently i missed my exam. Like i, missed it. As in my heifer ass was so busy, I mixed up the dates. The exam was on friday.
LMAO.
I should be freaking out, but all i can do is laugh.
This is proof of my sheer idiocy. WHo does this sort o shit, except for hanaan. Like really. I mean, i don't even know what to do. I have dropped the class, cuz, i mean i was already struggling, this will just ruin me. So, the problem I guess, is that, I am an idiot.
Oh god.
But on the plus side. I did really well on the other exams. I mean, decent, but i don't have that plummetting feeling in my chest after a rally bad exam. except for the one b38 but that wasn't all that bad......and i didn't miss it so i know it couldn't havve been that bad either. Regardless, I know this much. I need to get my head out of the clouds.
I an a sophmore, i only have two years left, then i am out in the real world. I need to educate myself, or else, i might as well look for a cardboard box right now, cuz that's where I'll be living.
My novel isn't going to sell, i know this much right now. In fact the only reason I am writing this, is because I want to finish it, bound it, and have a copy to read to myself and potentially my children or grandchildren if god gives me the chance. Trust me, i know i am stupid, but not that stupid to think i'll ever make a living o of this story. Either way, it is what it is. I need to start paying attention instead of sleeping in class. I need to start organizing my time properly, and perhaps i may have to give up my job ambitions.
Clearly multi-tasing is not my skill.
SO i am at hart house today. I am waiting or ayat haj (nell) to make an appearance, but most liekly she'll be late. It's what she does.
SO in the meantime I am going to write my story. The setting is just perfect. Not too silent, as then there are casual conversation, an occasional bang, and clash, a roar of laughter here and there. But overall a dim place. And the couches ar fantastical. LOL.
ANywho, i'll get to it. If anything procrastination has taught me one thing.
Ray.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Your Ghost-Greg Laswell
This is the perfect song for Sebastian and Leyla's romance in the second book.
Save the Hero
I actually came a ew interesting things as I was writing my novel. One is that Leyla isn't me. Or I am not Leyla. She is her own person, and though we make think alike, and I may get her in ways noone else might, she's a dierent person. I didscovered that while writing, because she did things I could never have the strength to, she handles things in a way i wish i could've. In fact, she's just like everyone else, but has to learn to think quicker, move faster, and love deeper. She's not a goody-goody, she has downfalls to her character, not fake ones,but real ones, but she is a characte i am proud of.
I also discovered another thing. I think like her, most of the time anyway, and in order to get the best version o this novel i decided, even though it is detriment to everything i have accomplished thus far, that I should write this in third person narrative. Leyla is a strong character, and her storyline alone is enough to warrant a series, but when i write from 'I' I tnd to not write what she does, but ather what I would do. And it's selish of me to do so.
It's strange because, after listening to this song, when i first wrote most of the novel (which i now have to rewrite) i discovered leyla herself has her own demons, and she feels like she has to save her one true love, Sebastian.
Monday, October 26, 2009
i can't tell you what his voice does to me...
I've loved justin nozuka, for like ever. He's truly my fave artist.
Represent Toronto!!
FML
fuck my life.
Guess what i found. DUring my summer job at canada's wonderland (a theme park), i have a haunting memory of falling on the job, and my mean coworkers put it up on youtube. i decided to edit it and explain my side o the story since i couldn't get it removed.
This is embarassing. See for yourself.
Ray.
Recap.
okay, so things have simmered down around here for awhile, so it's about time i let you know what'a been happening. First of, it was michelle's silva's birthday, and she wanted to go to drake hotel, which is like a white club. Well predominantly white, with a few oddballs like me shannon and ayat who have white friends. At first we recognized a few things.
1) We stood out like a period stain on white pants.
2) They loved playing music from the sixties
3) crumping and ginding was clearly out of the ordinary for this environment.
LOL This dumb girl even went out of her way to make us eel out of place by looking us up and down and whispering to her friends 'mm-mm, this is interesting.'(man i should have decked her, but she was like helga man. Around 6 ft, and i'm like 5'5, 5'6 on a good day.)
But yo, we turned this thing around in less then five minutes. It took a while to get used to the music, but yo their tunes were bumping, kinda oldschool, but we took it, and ran. Beggars can't be choosers man.
SO we broke it down, on the dancefloor.
Imagine the looks on their faces when my girl shannon, steph and michelle start grinding on their respective men, I'm telling you there ain't nothing funnier. The strangest thing ever was how people paid to come and stand around on the floor.
I mean i know you guys are all yuppie business men, and grad students entrepreneur people who just want to lounge, and i didn't mind one bit. Cuz hanaan can't dance, as in her body reuses to co-operate with her, and the finishing product almost always ends up injuring someone.
SO i only go out, when i have to . Like birthdays and such, where i don't have much of a say. Luckily i don't have another birthday to worry about until december.
But anyways, my girls went buckwild on the dance floor. Me and Nell danced moderately, while the girls did some XXX movements. LOL
Then the funniest thing happened. The guys all started circling around us. I mean like in packs of tens. And started casually dancing around us. I'm telling you I ain't NEVER felt more like a million bucks.
They looked to nervous to ask us to dance, and you could tell they envied Rad for dancing with michelle, and Michelle's little bro (who is like the coolest guy) who got to dance with all of us. So in any event, finally they got brave after a few drinks, and started approaching us. I think it had something to do with when the girls were tired of the dancefloor and took it to the stage. (I'm not kidding, they even broke a glass on the floor. Mazel Tov.)
Then it was just me and nell steph alma on the floor. SO this guy, somes up to me. I'm telling you people he is cuter than cute. LIke gerard butler meets adam brody, if you could picture it, and i was excited as he approached me.....and then he killed it.
He asked me to dance.
HE ASKED ME TO DANCE!!!!!!
LIKE WERE IN THE FRIGGIN 15TH CENTURY, HE GIVES ME HIS HAND AND TRIES TO PULL ME ON THE DANCELOOR.
i mean what else was left. Was he going to curtsy, and start galloping around me like a damn horse. LOL
I actually started laughing, and my girls died. Shannon pushed me to dance but i was so frazzled, i didn't know what to do with the hand he held out for me. Like really??
But he was cute, so i ignored it and danced around him to my girls, and he goes 'u going to turn me down like that?'
i felt like shit, i tell you, but it had to be done. I can't dance, and i would've made a fool of myself. But then this gay guy, came up to me, and started dancing with me. He was so charismatic, i just couldn't turn away, so i danced. I danced my life away. I didn't know ppl were watching us, but they were, and surprisingly enough they thought i was a good dancer.
LMFAO. ME HANAAN, lol.
ANyways, this guy got turned down by Nell twice, but Nell is a natural bitch, and she just pulled her hand away from him. I felt bad for him, i actually winced, and started laughing. Bad protocol, i know, but what do you expect me to do. I can't help myself i something is funny.
Oh yeah, and don't even get me started on how michelle's brother was a little flirt. He was grinding with every girl, including nell who said she didn't 'want to' and asked me to 'save her' but grinded anyway. lol.
Anyway, we left, and i wanted to go home, but shannon and steph were drunk out of their minds, and started roaming the streets of toronto. Me and nell were the only sober ones, so we ollowed them mindlessly. (We learned our lessons this time, and brought shorter heels.)
We went to pizza pizza (a growing tradition)and they caused ruckus. kathy stood on the bench (the wooden bench they have for waiting) and started asking ppl i how she was standing was bothering anyone.
Then these guys thought they could 'bud me', cuz they thought my droopy eyes meant i was drunk, not tired, and i went hood on them. These guys are like mid-thirtis, yuppies, middleclass men, in fact we were the youngest bunch in the whole club, and they stood there watching me argue my way out of it. Then he popped my balloon.
Yes ladies and gentleman he popped my balloon. This wallstreet briefcase and suitcase wearing guy with a suit and tie, popped my balloon. With his mouth, b/c i didn't give up my line. And i freaked out, and just as i held my spot, steph kathy and shannon already ran out and wanted to find a better place than this.
Ater all my hard work, of putting my foot down, and standing up for all those heifers.
But it doesn't matter, b/c as i was grumbling about in the street, we bumped into these two guys australian and french, and we walked with them all through downtown. Then we hopped in a cab, went to steph's and relived the night, and then went to get ood around oakwood and st clair, and called it a night.
I have never been in more trouble, and my mom started crying. I felt so baaad, and i got an intervention the next morning, on my 'hazardous lifestyle'.
LOL, it was so hard to keep from laughing.
But my cool uncle said let's just move on, and i did. I came home ontime today, so that has o count for something right.
Only now halloween frat party is coming up, and it's tradition.
I have to go...
But how, will i get to stay out without starting the mess out all over?
Hmph.
Ray.
Saturday, October 24, 2009
ouch...
okay i came in today at around 5 in the morning. My parents are mad at me (go figure right?)and my sisters are being rude. ALso my aunt is 'visiting' conveniently, so i'll probably get a lecture. FML.
Either way, i don't even mind, because my mind is on total shut down. I totally had un last night, but my sister is bitching for me to get off MY LAPTOP, and help her clean which she says is the 'least i can do'. Meh.
I'll explain everything that happened later, let me just confirm that I have a home still. LOL
Ray.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Hart House
I am at Hart House with bestie Nell. We originally came here to study, but ended up chilling with my laptop. Yeppers. I wrote my exam today.
Let's just say I am in no position to be speaking.
I'll get back to you when I have an answer.
Later.
Ray.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
FML
IN about less than six hours i have a ANTB19 exam due. I just bought my textbook. As in, no bullshit, I just peeled the plastic cover and touched the actual surface for the first time today.
So we can pretty much know how this day is going to end.
It's going to go a little like this.
Hanaan is going to show up to the exam, with droopy eyes, and pajamas, with my HB pencil, and a ID card. SHe will sit, and pray to god to help her through the way. Then she will flip the exam on it's back and discover that it is written in an entirely diffrent language. As in she doesn't understand the question let alone the answer. She will then nervously look around the room as she chews the insides of her mouth, and a single tear will roll down her face.
And when the exam is done, she will know exactly what it would feel like to be raped. And how helpless it is, when all you can do is bend over and take it, because the exam made a bitch out of you.
I don't even know man. I mean sometimes I am certain that I know what i am doing. Like i really think that I understand the consequences of my actions, but lately, man i can't really be sure. I'm just a walking dumbass at this point.
Oh but I have fantastic news.
I have a follower.
Yes, a follower. As in somebody else found my insignificant blog and deemed it interesting. Can you believe it?
I am actually really happy right now. I actually didn't think anyone would be reading this page. LOL. But low and behold penandpaper, has become my very first follower.
Anyone reading this is going.....'wow what a dork,' but hey i told my friends and they thought i was cool, so HAH!
anyways, if i plan on making use of the countless dollars i spent on a univeristy education i might as well study. SO peace y'all.
(and now i know someone is listening)
Ray.
Monday, October 19, 2009
Wanna hear something so funny?
My parents think my sickness--which is just the flu--is a result of my drugtaking!
Me, as in Hanaan MM, according to them is on drugs. WOw.
LMFAO.
The good part tho, is that they've actually forgotten that I am in trouble and are trying to 'take care of me', so i guess it's a plus.
Also it's kinda cool, to get the rebel coolness from looking like a drug user, without using. Only a geek like me will see that as a positive thing, but this is the closest I've come to rebellion, just let me have it.
This is just plain historic homie.
Ray.
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Wow leafs are sucking majorly.
I couldn't watch the gam because it was my friends 22st birthday, and we had to party on her behalf. And it was so weird. I mean. Me and m friends are like the complete opposites, and we've been friends for like ever. I've known ayat since we were in eigth grade,, and steph and michelle i became friends with in the ninth grade. And we've always been so different, it's hard to believe that we remained such best friends for so long.
I mean, michelle silva, has and always was, the capital chick. She's the hottest latina around, and she knows it. She focuses on her school work now that she goes to Ryerson, but you'll still see her at every party, and on her arm is always the hottest guy. She lives for make-up, and gossip, and loves to tear apart gils who think they're hot. She was loved in highschool, and adored in uni.
Steph T is a bit different, she goes to every single party, but just beacuse she has time to kill. She can't seem to focus on school, and still hasn't graduated, and really doesn't know what she's doing with her life,( I mean do any of us really?) but she's happy, and lives for the moment. Man you have to keep tabs on her just to know what's happening,who she's with lately, what hair style she's rocking now, and if she still thinks the world is as corrupt as she did last week. She's athletic, and cries if she can't hit the gym everyday, eats tofu and sushi, hates mcdonalds, and drinks like a fish. Her room is so bohemian you'd think she was a lovechild from the 70's.
Then there's ayat. She isn't exactly a hey let's pick up a book and read kinda gal, but she thrives in the fashion light. She lives for magazines, clothes, designers, especially marc jacobs, and wants to be a model. Very self-conscious of her body, not so much her mind. Hates when people call her an airhead, because she goes to ryrson, and studies occupational public health, but she can't shake off that persona, because she doesn't filter, and in her quest to sound smart, actually says aome really dumb and questionable stuff.
Then there's me. Really, I if you ask me, I'm just a regular person, but almost every single day of my life since infancy, everyone has always said to me: Hanaan you are so weird. I don't see it, I mean I say the same things as everyon else, but maybe it's because of my outlook on things. I want to be an author, i know that much, but everything else is a blank. My biggest issue in life, is my controlling parents, so i have it pretty good, but I don't filter. I also don't change. I've been told that frequently. Of course given a different surrounding, ppl might think I was different, perhaps more reserved. But really, everyone knows I am obnoxious as hell. I have remained the same, according to my friends from the vr first day we met, while everyone else evolved. But they think I am weird because I've never smoke pot, never drank, never had a boyfriend, never kissed, so obviously never did the 'do'. They keep telling me, 'wow u are a nun aren't you dear?', but I don't seem to think so. I mean it's not like I haven't been around these things or situations or found myself caught in them, but moreso, the fact that I have alwas done something else, instead leading me down a different path for most of them. I am also very awkward and don't know how to deal with some of those things, so instead, I shy away from it. A lot easier than dealing with it.
But anyway, surprisingly enough we are as close as you can possibly imagine.
Weird.
It's like the perfect example of opposites attract, only in this case we're all friends not lovers. lol.
Friday, October 16, 2009
damn
i know this sounds really gross, but i was planning on keeping this hair in for a couple more days. I got it straightened for the first time in a while,(I always wear it natural--curly) thanks to the party I just went to a few days back--gross i know--but just thinking now, after they gel my hair, I'll have to wash it out.
Damn.
Just a stupid afterthought.
Ray.
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Man-oh-man.
I'm screwed.
NO, REALLY I AM.
I have this lab due tommorrow, on the human evolution, and I haven't even started. Actually it's due today, in a few hours, it's 3 in the morning, and I haven't started a bit. I haven't even done the reading. Instead I watched roswell, studies for HLTB01, and watched grey's anatomy, and blogged.
Geez what's wrong with me.
Oh and I have this EEG experiment, that I have to do. Well I don't have to, but you get like 2 free credits--as in saving more than 2000 DOLLARs, so I don't have to take courses, use it as a filler. And guess what, I just have to sit down while they gel my scalp, and stick me to machines and moniter my brain activity while using the internet. Cool no?
I told my sis, and she thinks I'm mentally retarded, for even thinking about letting people touch my brain, but I told her they'll only be touching the scalp...
Oh and I found the car I'm going to buy.
I don't have th emoney, yet, and when I do buy it, I still need to get my G2, but ladies and gentlement I am almost on my way there. I can feel it.
And the book, club was officially kickstarted. Right now there are only twi members right now, but what can I say....it's a work in prgress. The first book is wuthering heights-my chioce, and the next weeks will be NELL'S.
Oh yeah and, my mom is still not talking to me.
I can beat that though.
I still haven't dyed me hair, or gotten a job, or bought my psych textbook, for which I'll need to study from considering my psych exam is next week. Hey at least I just bought my ANTB19 text, which exam will be on wednesday. The seal has still not been broken.
My life is a sham, man.
A damn sham.
Ray.
Tribute to Roswell
The best Show on the planet.....or out of. Such a roswellian joke to make! The brilliant show which lasted from 1999--I was only 11--to 2002/3. What a wonderful series, and I am so sad, because even though I just recently discovered the series, I on the last couple of episodes from the final thrid season. Meaning I won't see anymore true love between Max Evans and Liz Parker. No more tortured Michael Guerin, and Maria Deluca. No more sad cute charming Kyle Valenti, or his kind hearted father Sheriif Valenti. No more, Isabel Evans, and sadly no more--even though he died--Alex Whitman. I truly fell in love with this entire cast, everyone but Tess Harding, because she was the world's biggest bitch.
I want to go back to the 90's man.
Roswell I Heart You!!!
I Heart You Alex Whitman!
Best Friends Forever!
Jason Behr is a sexy beast! 
Boys will be boys.
Honestly, this song keeps making me cry....
I don't even know why. I think it has to do with that one episode in roswell, when Liz has to make Max fall out of love with him so that his alien world doesn't end in the future. So she succeeds and then asks for her final dance with the older max--the one from the future, who came to make her falll out of love, and as they dance, he disappears, because the course of his history changes, and that version of him, can no longer exist.
You should've seen me. I was all over the floor, and I was crying, and my mom just confirmed that I was a lunatic. Honestly, roswell, is the best show on the planet. Here check it out.
This is the song that will forever make me cry:
I shall believe-sheryl crow.
Lovely Bones Trailer
I heard the book was fantasticular, and I thought I might read it for myself. Until then, hre's the trailer.
It looks fantastic.
Canadian please!!!
I love this video, and as a canadian, I can vouch for the fact that everyone wants to be canadian.....please. lol, long live canada.
vivre la canada!
Funny right?
I know.
First Black Princess
Tiana, is the lastest princess in the newest disney adaptation, 'Th Princess and the frog.' It's a must watch, I'll link the trailer from youtube, trust me, it just gives you a feel-good vibe. You know what I mean if your an 80's baby, or 20+ becasue then you'll remember the childhood era, of disney movies that took your imagination, to great destinations. Remember the great feeling you had inside after watching beauty and the beast for the first time, or cinderella, well i got the feeling from this trailer. Take a look.
As you can see, it's such a feel good movie. For one, it's the fact that for once, the princess isn't just waiting for a prince. For once the princess has a drive and purpose, and is working hard, all on her own, independent of a man, but also gets blessed with true love in the process.
I could feel a hit movie in the making man.
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
So my hope for the leafs are dwindling...
especially since the leafs haven't won a single game since the opening, and I really don't know why. We were supposed to bettand we lost like 6-2 yesterday. Well that was the score before my sister ripped the remote from my hands and told me "she couldn't bring herself to watch the leafs embarass themselves like that".
I don't know but, I bleed blue and white. We will win the cup.....someday.
ANywho. I don't know what's up with mom and pops. Well pops is kinda cool, but moms is like....postal. I worry I will turn into her, since we all eventually become our parents, but at least it won't be all bad. I mean aside from these patchy moments where I want to rip her hair out, I actually admire her. I sort of forget that she's my hero, when she's bing a B****, but I guess I have to let this shadow pass.
Oh and I've found some papers, that we can use, to move out. I think I am going to tell her I am majoring in anthro, and I will need to travel to another country to do my year of fieldwork.
This is decent enough of a reason to move out right?
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Friday night.
okay, so friday night went well. very well.
remember the hotel party i was telling you guys about, well i went, and it was fantastical. There were a lot of people, and it was overall the coolest experience in the universe. The only downer was having to suck in my gut the whole night, i took periodical shifts to let loose in the washroom, when you see the pics you'll know what I mean.
Yeah we all looked good, and the hotel, sheraton hotel on osgoode station was so beautiful. And the guys kept eyeing us everywhere we went. almost everyone was drunk and blem, but things on the sober side were a lot more comfortable for me, if you know what i mean. But yeah, there were a few glitches, the security came and made them and threw everyone out at 1am. but that was good for me cuz I had to go home. And i was too chicken to complain. But then we all jazzed up and went walking downtown. In my heels, I actually took them off and walked barefoot for a while. And these random guys on the street kept pointing and laughing, it was ridiculous. We eventually put on our heels and braved it. Kind of hilarious.
Then as always we made a timmy's stop and refueled.
Took some extra random photos, and then cabbed it. I changed out of my dress and into jeans sweater and leather jacket, and called it a night. I was so tired.
But the moral of this story is we had a ridiculouly great time. I learned that people respect you more wen you respct yourself, and dressing up and feeling good about ourselves like that, we actually looked good, and felt great, and other poeple could notice.
I missed vampire diaries over it, but it'll re-run on 'much' all day anyway. I love much man. Oh and i am still excited about it. Naturally i was in so much trouble that night. Bu hre the cool thing.
Yesterday me and nell wenr to hart house and studied (we need to after wasting fiday night like we did. But we also started a book club, and planned out everything we wrere going to do, from now until the rest of the semester. A lot of good stuff haappended this week.
And even though my ass will be in trouble until the day i die, i can honestly say it was worth it.
Oh and I wish I could take back the moments where i was always standing next to the rfreshments table. i realized now awkwardness could be taken for hungry hungry hipponess.
lol.
Ray
Saturday, October 10, 2009
wow.
ok, i just got in, at, 5:39 am, my eyes are droopy, i am soooo dead. but i had one of the greatest days of my life. tell u all about it in a few.
i must sleep!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Nicknames???
Nazem Kadri is going to be our hit man next year, perhaps in the 2010-2011 season, so nicknames we can throw around until then....
Nasty Naz
The dark night
Gaze Em'
Naz
that's all I found so far, but we have time to find new ones.
One last thing...
If you haven't noticd I tend to blog one after another, because different topics need diffeent spaces, so if I haven't blogged in a while you'll get this sort of verbal diarrhea. ANyways, What the hell is up with the Leafs.
I am a major die hard fan of th Toronto Maple Leafs, and I bleed blue and white, but we've been paying like garbage. To many people it's like "what else is new?" But that's not fair.
We are actually a great team. A heck of a lot better than a lot of teams in the NHL, but for some reaosn we always lose out momentum. BUt I keep thinking this year will be the year. But We lost the season opener and the game after. We lost to the habs man!
My heart still hurts from that.
And then the senators, what a way to add insult to injury.
I don't know. I sorta knew we were going to lose after the schenn freak out penalty and shootout which made the game go from 0-0 to 2-0. I knew we were done for.
LOL
But we have this new kid. Nazem Kadri.
Just check out this vid, man the kid is on fire. And woot woot, he's middle eastern, just like me. I was born in saudia arabia. And he's muslim. I think it's awesome how the face of hockey is slowly changing, culturally, and this kid is good. I mean, he just may be what Toronto needs.
sick sick sick. I have big dreams for this guy.
Oh yeah...
And I found my new spot, after my old spot was hijacked.
I came and found some asian guy sitting there, and I tried giggling, and complaining that it was my spot, and I that I had selected that spot is my spot, but he didn't give a crap.
Sometimes I do believe what they say about U of T students beign snobby. So I spent the rest of the afternoon, finding another place and I found it. It's near the old place and it'a quite snazzy.
1) I Have wifi, and I pick up internet signals so I can wou know 'surf the net' and write here.
2) Also, I can catch up homwork, and stuff cuz I can do everything on the laptop. I am a great multi-tasker.
3 It's not deafeningly silent like it is in the management building, but it is quiet. With just the appropriate amount of dim. Perfect, though I could actually work in any environment, just as long as it isn't too silent. I can go crazy when it is too silent. I actually would much rather work through a party than in a silent place.
4) It's behind the stacks,, so I can literally get away with so much stuff, like eating, watching movies when I feel like it, talking on the phone. I mean I just ate a pizza, and a meal fit for a king, and nobody noticed.
5) I also have an outlet right beside me so I can charge my stuff.
6) I have the books here with me, so if ever I need external sources they are right here.
7) There is a fire door next to me, so if ever I am here alone, with just one push the whole building will know I am in danger.
I think its the best place yet.
Cool.
(a guy just walked past me, eyeballing my spot. He better not get any clever ideas, cuz I ain't playing this time. I'ma wup his ass if I see him here.)
LOL
Ray
Motownphilly
These boys kept it real.
I miss them, and their sinful harmony...
"So we started a group and here we are, kicking it just for you."
Tracy Chapman--Fast Car
I love this song, and this version is the best in my opinion. Funny, I rarely like live shows, but with this one she's a winner.
Tell me you weren't feeling that joint?
This song takes me back...
waaay back....
Due, remember this?
I used to have the biggest crush on these guys. Not to mention the backwards baseball jackets. Oh wow, take me back to the 90's man.
AWWW...
Aren't they just the picture of a happy couple?
David Bowie is so cute, and Iman is a sexy mama.
Ok, I heard it from my mom, which probably doesn't count for very much (but she seemed to stress it so I think she may have been telling the truth), that Iman's tribe/clan is my family's tribe clan. I mean we don't know each other, or seen one another, ever have connecting links, BUT, if she is a part of my tribe, that means in some way we are connected. Because in essence, tribes/clans in our cultures work, so that certain families of somalis are grouped based on relativity, and though our relations might be tiny, and miniscule and barely amount to anything, I can safely say we share the same ethinic decendents.
Cool huh?
I thought it was.
Good stuff. Bad stuff.
well here's the good stuff:
I handed in my evolutions lab, and my anthro abstract. I also managed to convince my mom that I hav a late night lab, and i will be coming home late. Whereas in actually, my besties sister, areej is going to have her birthday party at sheraton hotel downtown, and I have permission to stay out all night. Uneducated parents have their advantages.
Bad thing:
I haven't touched my eternal static. I mean, I literally don't even know where to start, I've been wondering how I'm going to edit it, and take it in a new direction. I mean hypothetically speaking, apart from a few missing scenes, this novel is already done. But, this is going to sound textbook corny, but I feel like I need to take the story in a new direction. I need to change a few things, only because my mind-set has changed. I don't see the world the same way after this summer for some strange reason. The funny part is I'm not even sure why. It's not like I had some major life changing moment or anything....I just.....I'm just different. So now, Leyla, who's life plan and fate was already decided is going to follow me on my derail, because in essence as of right now she IS me. Maybe not what she does, or how she is, but her brain is mine. So I can't write from her perspective and not change it, and because of that now the whole story will be shifted around.
Another thing. I've noticed, even though I know Sebastian Crane inside and out, when re-reading the passages where I have written about him, it's like I don't know him at all. I'm starting to think that maybe it's because I am not a very good writer but its not just that. That for sure is certain, i'm a shit box of a writer, but maybe I am not doing Sebastian Crane's character any justice. I mean he is the most complex character, apart form olivia and samson (total future character I don't even know where he came from, his name and plot just popped into my head right now as I speak...lol). I mean sebastian crane doesn't just do things for the sake of doing them. I mean he really carefully thinks everything out. And even though he does things, that may always on first glance seem like a mistake in his account, it really isn't. For him it was the only move he could make. Sebastian and Leyla, though they are completely different characters, opposite in every way a human can be, it's quite strange how they could be exactly the same beings. They really are the same. Half the time I am writing from Sebastian's perspective via Leyla, and I don't even know it. But I don't think many people will see this, because I am not a good writer.
I know, you hear people saying it all the time "oh i suck" and then their work is a fricking giller prize in the making.
But believe me. Mine's is a total pice of dump. But the strange thing is I love it. The story is something I like to think about when I have spare time, I really do adore it. I just hope someone out there loves and cares for it as much as I do, even if it one other person.
Anyways, moving on from the emo crap.
I am going to go to the gym tommorrow.
I bought an agenda, so cross that off the list of things to do.
ALso I made resume, so that means I am halfway on the way to etting a job right?
I can't believe I am going to the gym. Damn. If you need to know, I really am not a gym person. Sitting here writing this, I am eating two slices of pizza, orange crush, jalapeno chedder sauce, smartfood popcorn and ringolos.
I am not a healthy person.
But this girl named Alannah Holder who goes to uoft with me, is persuading me to go, and I must tell you, I kind of don't want to.
I mean I do, I need to get in shape before summer, because of all my friends I am the least ready to go public in bathing suit.Trust me, you'll cringe, and hurl. So I mean there's motivation there, but you see, I don't have school tommorrow. I constructed my schedule so I have tuesdays and thursdays off, so that I can refuel in between school days. And I am only running on 1and 1/2 hours of sleep from last night and the extra sleep would be fantastic.
But I am a slacker, and maybe the early hours wil remind me never to cram, and buy the textbook for the class the night befor your essay is due. Oh who am I kidding, I've been doing this since I was able to talk, procrastination is my middle name.
But I find I do some of my best work in times of procrastination. Like the 97% I scored in my chemistry lab last year topping the smartest kid in school. I'll nver forget that moment, I was a happy bird.
what was I talkign about....
Oh yea, so I guess I am going. But I'll tell you I am not happy about it.
Geez louise, I have two more years of this agony left. How am i gonna get through this?
Monday, October 5, 2009
Cool!
I got someone from french polynesia to check out my page. I thought that deserved a mention, and I find it pretty cool that five americans have viewed my page. Kinda awesome, no?
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Harper Bazaar's Fashion week
Moschino
BCBG Maxazaria
DKNY
Donna Karan
Thakoon
Carolina Herrera
Carolina Herrera
Carolina Herrera
Marc Jacobs spring 2010
Katja Shchekina is my new fave model.
Big ups to this girl. She's fly as hell, and I just discovered she's half-somali, from her mother's side. That's my people what! what!
Check her out. She's dope.
I need to get a job.
I need to get a job.
I need to finish anthro paper.
I need to catch up on my readings, because I just bought my textbooks.
I need to get a grip.
Fame sucks more than a hoover.
Seriously, worst movie i have ever seen. I don't even know where to begin.
Oh i know, let's start with the main character jenny. WTF man! Half the time your thinking oh, she's such a sweet heart, goody goody two shoes, and out of nowhere she gives us a little insight into her slutty side, without even trying to progress her change in character through character development.
"My parents are gone....how about I have sex with you even though we've only just met, and you've shown that your an insecure little twat."
What an embarassing scene.
The only thing more embarassing than that, was when he had to be sold on following her afterwards, like as if he wasn't looking forward to sleeping with her. I swear I even saw him cringe, as she hopped all the way to broadway and 35th before he even started moving forward after her. LOL
And then there's victor taveres. WTF was the point of putting him in the movie. I swear he didnn't even have an important role, other than being a producer.
Denise was the only character of significance, who actually grew in th movie. Who could actually act, without evoking every possible african-american stereotype there ever was.
Marco is so gay its not even funny. The only thing even more funnier than that is th fact that he is trying to hide it, which is hilarious by dating that cardboard cut-out character jenny who doesn't have a personality. It'r true, check out his dancing man. The only time he even looks like a man is when he was singing.
Jenny's dance at the end....oh dear god.
Wow, could they enforce anymore stereotypes in that movie. Malik, pissed me off in more ways than I could've ever imagined. Wow, I'v never heard of a teenage boy who grew up in the hood, with a dead sister who was shot, and a mother who doesn't let him live his life. Trying to get out of the 'hard life'....pshttt, seriously, at least if you are going to do this, do it properly, not half-assed with a spoke word method actor. LOL
Oh and the mom and her weave tracks that started 10 inches into her scalp, was hilarious. And the dad was practically bursting out of his shirt. Try XXL man.
Oh and what the hell was up with the dancer? She was captain bitch. I didn't even think she was even all that fly of a dancer anyway.
But I guess good enough fo that shitty school. I mean come-on at least do juliard or something, but when you pick a school located right next to a dumpster on an unknown street what do you expect.
I mean did you guys see the shot outside the school. My middle school looked bigger than that, man. LOL
Oh but I should stop hating. Cuz it didn bring me some entertainment. So I would actually like everyone to check it out, it's quite funny. But not an oscar contender, by a longshot. I mean you never see the characters develop, or grow. They do things and you never understand why, very stupid things. The movie skips a lot of stuff, skipping from frshman to sophmore and junior then senior, but the funny thing is NOTHING CHANGES.
LMAO, is my case.
Wohoo!
Wow, I actually am going through with this plan. Remember a couple of pots below, when I said I was going to change my look, and I was going to start with buying hair dye. Well I got the dye.
Well to be completely honest nell got the dye. On our little down town expedition, we started our quest to find hair dye. It is imposible I tell you. I couldn't even begin to explain how many boutiques along queen street, we've entered and exited. We found blue, purple, red, but no silver.
Nell actually wants to dye her whole head silver. It is a little questionable since I first wanted to dye my hair silver (streak) but kind of cool that we both have the same tastes. That rarely ever happens in fashion. Or in boys for that matter.
Ok so then we went to the shoppers on college and yonge, and found this dye called ice cream. I'm not sure if you have heard of it, but it's kind of cool. It's in an orange box, so you can't see what dye it is, but I found it's catalogue and I had to match hair color to number on box, and voila.
But nell left with it, because it was almost 1am. I have parents who make stalin and mussolini look like wusses.
But the moral of this story is, I have the hair dye.
So I don't have school on tuesday and thursday, and I plan to get together with nell and we should be able to get it done.
Photos will be up soon. I also have black hair dye just in case we need to dye it back. I have a feeling I'll need it.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Who did it first?
I've been listening to fefe dobson and I can't help but see her style similarity between her and rihanna. I mean she is quite similar to her in style, and attitude, only, I've just discovered that they once had the same record label. Def Jam.
Yep, and fefe dobson got dropped.
So if you let your imagination run wild, you can sort of see how rihanna could have been persuaded to blend her style with hers.
To be fair, their style is sort of different, and fefe's style is more funky edge, where was rihanna's is more like lady gaga--much more svelt, and showstoppy. CHeck these photos out!
remember that tattoo? Looks an awful lot similar to one rihanna has no? And she got it first.
Either way, fefe did it first. And i sot of think her label dropped fefe cuz the music industry wasn't ready to fund her music, especially since there aren't many african americans who do rock/pop. I mean def jam isn't indie, so it's looking for mass audiences to entertain. Like rihanna.
It's rather sad, because I do adore fefe dobson, and her music. Her style....if you ask me....was original.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
SICK SICK SICK Tune
I actually went there in the summer, and I loved it. Of course I felt homesick, and I wanted to go back to the dot, but, it was the best place to vacation.
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Cracks me up every single time.
Now tell me y'all weren't dyng of laughhter. Courtesy of Youtube of course. Damn I think I live on that website.
I need to stop.
We all know Hanaan can't afford to even look at one of these, let alone post it on my wall. I'm setting myself up for disaster, and I just cleared the balance of my credit card...
