eh yo...

so i don't know what happened....but apparently i missed my exam. Like i, missed it. As in my heifer ass was so busy, I mixed up the dates. The exam was on friday.

LMAO.

I should be freaking out, but all i can do is laugh.
This is proof of my sheer idiocy. WHo does this sort o shit, except for hanaan. Like really. I mean, i don't even know what to do. I have dropped the class, cuz, i mean i was already struggling, this will just ruin me. So, the problem I guess, is that, I am an idiot.

Oh god.

But on the plus side. I did really well on the other exams. I mean, decent, but i don't have that plummetting feeling in my chest after a rally bad exam. except for the one b38 but that wasn't all that bad......and i didn't miss it so i know it couldn't havve been that bad either. Regardless, I know this much. I need to get my head out of the clouds.

I an a sophmore, i only have two years left, then i am out in the real world. I need to educate myself, or else, i might as well look for a cardboard box right now, cuz that's where I'll be living.

My novel isn't going to sell, i know this much right now. In fact the only reason I am writing this, is because I want to finish it, bound it, and have a copy to read to myself and potentially my children or grandchildren if god gives me the chance. Trust me, i know i am stupid, but not that stupid to think i'll ever make a living o of this story. Either way, it is what it is. I need to start paying attention instead of sleeping in class. I need to start organizing my time properly, and perhaps i may have to give up my job ambitions.

Clearly multi-tasing is not my skill.

SO i am at hart house today. I am waiting or ayat haj (nell) to make an appearance, but most liekly she'll be late. It's what she does.

SO in the meantime I am going to write my story. The setting is just perfect. Not too silent, as then there are casual conversation, an occasional bang, and clash, a roar of laughter here and there. But overall a dim place. And the couches ar fantastical. LOL.

ANywho, i'll get to it. If anything procrastination has taught me one thing.

Ray.